if you're anything like me...

and have no idea what you are going to do with your life, you should read Emily's post about how to see the future. This year has been full of "freak outs" in which I, well, freak out because I don't know where my life is going. Granted, I'm only nineteen. But I get to thinking about choosing my classes for the semester, then choosing my major in the spring, then choosing my career from that.......and it just stresses me out. What does one do when she has beautifully written sentences in her head, yet her school doesn't have a major in writing a book? Or when she is passionate about fashion, interior design, photography, weddings, nutrition, and fitness, but UVa either doesn't have the programs for them or she gets discouraged by the fact that those passions don't necessarily point to practical careers? Emily's post was encouraging in that she makes me feel okay for having all of these passions and dreams of being something when I grow up that might not necessarily follow whatever I major in in college. Whatever my art is, whatever passions and abilities the Lord has woven into my being, it will come. The art will come. But in the mean time, finding patience and allowing time to uncover the secrets of my design is hard and frustrating. I just want to know how to get where I need to end up, you know? I want to know which classes to take now, which major to choose, which internships to apply to, which summer jobs to pursue. But unfortunately, there's no such thing as a road map for my life.


God has promised me that He knows the plans He has for me. And they will prosper me, not harm me. They will give me hope and a future. So for now, as hard as it is, I cling to that. That, and as Emily put so well, the whispers of my design.