holy cow

This year flew by. Cheesy, I know. But there's really know other way to say it. I mean, I came here on August 18 (I think??) and now it's May 9. I am going back to Roanoke tomorrow. And it happened just like that. The fact that my first year of college is done is blowing my mind right now...I have so many mixed emotions about this. On the one hand, I can't wait to go home- being home for Easter definitely got me excited to spend time with my friends, hang out with my family, work out at the RAC (the AFC is great, but for some reason I just love my gym at home), sleep in my own bed (there is truly NOTHING that compares), drive my car, go to my home church, read books I actually want to read, be a nanny, and most importantly NOT HAVE TO DO WORK. Oh yeah, and I am beyond ready for home cooking. On the other hand, I will miss my Charlottesville friends and just the city in general. I just started packing up what has been my life for the past 9 months or so...it doesn't feel right. It legitimately feels like I packed up and moved here and started college yesterday. Haha I love the move-in day memories...






Now, I'm throwing everything into my suitcases and getting ready to take it all back. (Side note--it's really scary how much I have accumulated in this little room over the past few months. At this point, I'm really worried that I won't be able to fit it all into my room at home). Anywhoo, as I took down some of the pictures from my desk, I found a notecard that I put up near the beginning of the year. On it, I wrote Malachi 3:10- "Test me in this and see if I don't open up heaven itself to you and pour out blessings beyond your wildest dreams" (The Message). I read this, and my heart hurts...but not in a bad way. I know my feelings are all exaggerated because of exhaustion and the emotions that come from leaving. But really, my heart hurts with happiness...with relief...with oh-I-could-just-hit-myself-right-now-because-God-was-right-again. The beginning of the year was really interesting, to say the least. But there was God, begging me to test him and trust him and believe in his promise. And as my girl Ashley put so well the other day, of course I told him that I did not want to. I told him that I wanted to put matters into my own hands and work everything out. The micro-manager in me came out and stressed over things that I had absolutely no business stressing about. At that point, I could never have imagined feeling this way the day before I leave and go to my other home. I definitely did not think I would be sitting here, blogging about how God really did open up heaven itself and pour out blessings beyond my wildest dreams. GOD.IS.SO.GOOD.


He fills my life with good things. -Psalm 103:5


More to come on my first year of college later :)