August 26, 2010

my blueprints are getting so worn out from all of my erasing...

Well, my life has certainly changed a lot over the past few days! I am now sitting in my college dorm room on a campus where I know very, very few people. So crazy! While I have been trying to get into the swing of things here and get my life organized, I have been constantly reminded of God's plan for my life. As I have to add and drop classes and sign up for different activities, etc, I am forced to stay firmly rooted in the hope that God really does have this all planned out. That makes one of us. And thankfully, it's the better one of us. If I was the one with the plan here, we would have a MASSIVE problem. Massive. At this very moment, I am waiting for a biology lab class to open up. A lab with a wait list around 100 people long. A lab with only 48 open spots. No one knows when this class is going to appear...we just have to keep checking. Every 5 minutes. Over and over again. Until it shows up. This could be now, it could be tonight, it could be Saturday. Not even the professor knows. It's frustrating at best. If I get into this class, it will be my 14938710982347th schedule change since I made my original schedule back in July. Oh, how fleeting my plans are. But oh, how SOLID my God's are. Again and again God keeps refreshing Jeremiah 29:11 in my memory..."I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for" (The Message). I am so comforted by the fact that He has it all pre-planned for me.

A few days ago, while changing my class schedule around for about the sixth time, I told my friend that I would love to know where I am going with my life in order to make class choices easier. I said to him, "I wish God would give me a little glimpse of myself in the future so that I would know what job I have and would be able to pick the classes towards my major and be good to go." He responded with something along the lines of, "Seriously, I wish God would send me an email entitled 'God's Plan for Your Life.'" As we were having this conversation, I was catching up on my devotionals. God responded to my text in a different way. Not five seconds after I had sent the message, I finished reading one of the devotionals. I quote,
"During WWII, Arthur Sulzberger, publisher of The New York Times, found it hard to sleep or rid his mind of fear until he adopted these words from the hymn, "Lead, Kindly Light": "I do not ask to see the distant scene; one step enough for me." And God isn't going to let you see the distant scene either. No, He promises a lamp for your feet, not a crystal ball for your future. "He leadeth me" and that's enough for today."

This devotional, entitled The Word for You Today, really does hold the words of the day for me. And that day, it held just the words I needed...even though the devotional wasn't even from that specific day. As I've said many times before, God's timing is so...unique. So...absolutely mind-blowing. And His plan? So...perfect. It's really hard to keep things in perspective as I am STILL waiting for this class to show up on SIS. (By the way, I started this blog around 6, then went to class, and now it's about 9:30. Special thanks to my mother, who sat by her computer at home to check every 3 minutes-yes, she even had the kitchen timer going- while I went to another class. Mommy, you are an amazing woman). But I'm trying. So as I wait it out, I just hope I can keep God's plan in mind. SIS is currently failing me. But the Lord never will. And all God's people said....AMEN!
PB&J

"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path."
-Psalm 119:105

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